Welcome to the chaos. Let’s own it. They say beginnings are hard — bullshit. Consistency is harder. Period. A blinking cursor on a blank page. A to-do list crammed with notes for blog ideas that never get written. But here’s the thing: hard doesn’t mean impossible. Not when you’ve got that spark inside you.
“Reinvention doesn’t come with an expiry date. It comes with courage.”
Have you ever stared at a blinking cursor, feeling like it’s mocking you? I have. But chaos doesn’t win when curiosity takes the lead.
At 38, I traded certainty for curiosity. Learning design? Check. Leadership? Been there, nailed that. But coding? That was new territory. When society whispered, “It’s too late,” I turned up my headphones, smiled, and pushed play.
Why Now? Why This?
Because if not now, then when?
There’s graffiti scrawled on the wall of Berlin’s old Tacheles building: “Tacheles.” It means cutting the crap. Speaking straight. That’s what this is — for me, for you, for anyone standing on the edge of reinvention.
Before coding, I scribbled ideas on beer mats and serviettes, stuffing them into pockets and moving boxes. Those scraps of life traveled with me — Tbilisi to Berlin, learning design to Android development, chaos to clarity. Reinvention doesn’t come with an expiry date. It comes with courage.
A Tale of Two Pivots
High school journalism? Meh. German Linguistics? More “Hallo!” than Heidegger. European Studies? A platter of half-digested ideas. I dabbled in academia, toyed with a Ph.D., and spent two decades chasing curiosity — building learning programs, leading teams, and even earning a coaching certification (mostly to figure out why it cost so much).
Then came the pivot: crafting words to writing code. Junior Software Engineer at 38? Hell yes. Life isn’t about retracing old steps; it’s about strutting forward in shoes that fit the now — even if they pinch at first.
The Magic of Curiosity
Let’s be real: Chaos is uncomfortable. A blinking cursor stares you down, ideas half-formed and scattered like breadcrumbs. But curiosity? It refuses to let you quit. It nudges you forward, whispering, “Try. Tweak. Fail. Rise.” Messy? Absolutely. But messy is where the magic happens.
I’ve learned that reinvention starts with a spark — that ADHD-fueled itch to explore something new. Chaos fuels curiosity, and curiosity drives courage. You’ll fail, sure. But you’ll rise too. And when you do, you’ll know it was worth every stumble.
What’s This About?
Real talk. Tacheles. No fluff, no sugar-coating, no wasted time.
It’s about tech, ADHD tangents, parenting, late restarts, curiosity loops, and all the glorious mess in between. It’s a rallying cry. A nudge to keep going. A shoulder to lean on when you’re ready to quit.
Here’s what you’ll get: Tech insights: Not just the what, but the why. Hard-earned shortcuts: Lessons I learned the hard way, so you don’t have to. Honest stories: The kind that say, “Me too,” when you thought you were the only one.
Why Am I Here? To remind you — and me — of this: You’re not broken. You’re not late. You belong in the room.
Reinvention isn’t a straight line. It’s a wild, chaotic, exhilarating loop. So, are you in? Let’s embrace the chaos and turn it into something extraordinary — together.